Nuff Said

Paglimot sa Bangongot ng Nakaraan

          Walang akong magawa. Hindi rin ako inspired sa araw na ito. Pakiramdam ko wala namang kamangha-manghang nangyayari sa araw na ito. Naisip ko na wala din namang exciting na gagawin kundi ang humilata sa kama at tumingin sa kisame. Ito yung mga araw na kung hindi occupied ang utak ng isang tao ay dun din pumapasok ang mga nakaka "emo" na bagay sa mundo. Gaya na lang nang pag-alala sa nakaraan. Kadalasan mga malulungkot na aalaala.Ito yung moment na kung saan ginugunita natin na nasakta tayo, iniwan at bigla na lang tayong nalulungkot at manghihinayang. Minsan kapag sobra ang sakit na naransan nung nakaraan ay umabot tayo sa punto na iiyak tapos biglang marealize natin na tapos na pala ito. Parang tanga lang!

          Tumayo ako sa kinahihigaan ko at nag ikot sa buong hacienda bahay (kubo?) namin. Mag-isa lang ako. Wala si Mommy at Daddy (pasosyal!). Tahimik ang buong hacienda bahay (kubo?). Tanging si Diglet (ang aso ko) ang maingay na kumakahol sa bawat taong dumaraan sa labasan. Dumungaw ako sa bintana upang silipan ang bakuran. Tahimik. Walang makausap. Minumulto na naman ako ng mga alaala nang aking nakaraan. Nag-isip ako ng gagawin upang maiwasan ang pagkalungkot ko. Naghanap ng mababasa, ngunit wala akong makita. Tumungo ako sa kusina upang kumuha ng kutsilyo malamig na tubig.Habang hawak ang bote ng malamig na tubig, napansin ko ang cabinet sa itaas ng hugasan na kalahating bukas. Binuksan ko ito at tinignan kung anong laman. Bumungad sa aking harapan ang mga kasangkapang may kalumaan na pero hindi na ginagamit sa pagluluto.Mga disposable noodle cups na nakatago, nakapatong at nakaayos. Mga plastic cups, fork and spoon na sa tingin ko ay gamit na ngunit itinago na para bang may sentimental value ang mga ito.

          Naisip ko na kahit sa mga bagay na mahalaga sa atin ay mahirap din palang itapon. Mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa atin. Mga bagay na nagpapaala-ala na minsan sa buhay natin tayo ay naging masaya sa piling nya. Kung ang bagay na ito ay may halaga pa pano na lang kaya kung yung taong minsan naging parte ng pagkatao mo. 

           Ngunit mahirap harapin ang bukas kung ang buong pagkatao mo ay naiwan sa nakaraan.Malabong darating ang bagong saya kung hindi ka pa handang yakapin ang tuwa at saya na kayang ibigay ng iba. Mahirap makahanap ng bagong pag-ibig kung ang puso mo ay nakatali pa rin sa iyong nakaraan. Umaasang sa darating na panahon ay magkabalikan at muling mapukaw ang nagaalab nyong damdamin kahit pa na alam mong hindi na kailan man mangyayari.

          Kailangan kung makalimot. Kailangan kung mag move on. Kailangan kung harapin ang "Umagang Kay Ganda" (plugging ito!?) na mag-isa (sa ngayon). Naghanap ako ng paraan upang makalimutan ang bangongot ng aking nakaraan. Nagtanong sa mga kaibigan. Nakinig sa kanila payo. Pinairal ang pagmamahal sa sarili  at binigyan ng importansya ang mga taong higit na nagmamahal na walang hinihinging kapalit. 

        Upang madaling makalimot sa pait ng kahapon, gumawa ako ng hakbang at paraan gaya ng...
  1. Hindi pagpunta sa mga lugar na nakakapagpa alaala sa kahapon. Lalo na sa mga motel na madalas nyong pinunpuntahan.
  2. Isipin mo na panget sya at puro kapintasan lang ang nakikita mo sa kanya. Masama na kung masama. Masama din naman ugali nya. Bwahahaha (evil laugh). Lol
  3. Itago ang mga bagay na bigay nya. Wag itapon sayang. Baka pwede pa pagkakitaan.
  4. Wag tumambay sa bahay nyo. Nakakabaliw yan. Puntahan ang mga matitinong kaibigan at makipag usap. Wag sa mga siraulong kaibigan, dadahil ka lang nila sa kabaret bar. 
  5. Mag paganda ng katawan/magpasexy. Para maglaway ang hinayupak. Yun ay kung maglaway talaga sya.Goodluck na lang kung mas sexy/gwapo o maganda ang pinalit sayo. Move on ka na lang. Kung panget na man ang pinalit sayo, aba eh! yan ang tinatawag na TRUE LOVE. Talo ka dyan. Hayaan mo na lang din. 
         Sa totoo lang mahirap talaga kalimutan ang isang bagay na nagbigay sayo ng kahulugan. Mahirap kalimutan ang isang taong nagbigay sayo ng kahulugan kung paano mabuhay, kung paano kalimutan ang iyong sariling pangarap para lang bumuo ng pangarap kasama sya. Mas mahirap pa kung sa bawat pangarap na binuo nyo eh hindi na pala ikaw ang magiging katuwang nya na buoin ang mga iyon. Ngunit, hindi pa huli ang lahat. Hindi pa magugunaw ang mundo. Hindi ka man mapalad sa larangan ng pag-ibig sa ngayon. Alam ko at alam mo na meron din naman isang tao dyan na handang buoin muli ang mga pangarap na yun. Malay mo katabi mo sya ngayon o di naman kaya nakatingin sya sayo sa malayo. Malay mo makakatabi mo sya sa jeep pauwi sa inyo mamaya. Malay mo makasalubong mo sya sa daan. There is still hope for a heart that has been broken. Dont give up on love.



Luha: Sa Duyan

Habang nakahiga sa duyan na aking tambayan
Nagmumuni-muni sa mga nangyari noong nakaraan
Sa duyan umusbong pagiibigan na puro kasinungalingan
Ngunit sa mismong duyan nangangarap na ako'y iyong balikan

Naalala mo pa noong una kitang niyaya
Na sumabay sa indayog ng aking duyan at tayo ay magparaya
Magiliw kang sumakay sabay hawak ang aking kamay
Nangako kang ako'y samahan kahit duyan ay wala nang tibay

Ngunit sa paglipas ng panahon pagibig mo ay nagbago
Ang dati mong sigla sa duyan ko ay naglaho
Ang sabi mo sa akin pagod ka na at nahihilo pa
Di naman kaya buntis ka aking sinta? Sagot mo ay "Oo" ngunit di ako ang ama.

Wasak ang puso nang iniwan mong nagiisa
Sumama ka sa iba na di hamak ako ay mas gwapo pa
Sana di na lang umasa na ikaw ay makakasama
Luha ay umagos sa aking mga mata habang nagiisa sa duyan na nakatunganga.

Ang tulang nasa itaas ay kalahok sa patimpalak ni Tweety BIRD (Iya_khin) na pinamagatang Luha Mo sa Pakontest Ko.

A Mother's Love

A Mother's love is something that no once can explain
It is made of deep devotion and of sacrifice and pain
It is endless and unselfish and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it or take that love away

It is patient and forgiving when all others are forsaking
And it never fails or falter even though the heart is breaking
It believes beyond believing when the world around condemns
And it glows with all the beauty of the rarest, brightest gems

It is far beyond defining it defies all explanation
And it remains a secret like the mysteries of creation
A many splendored miracle man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence of God's tender guiding hand.

-- Helen Steiner Rice

~~~

Dear Mom,

Today is your special day. I wish I was there to celebrate with you. It makes me sad that I am away from home. I'll just think about the memories we've shared to cheer me up. Since its your birthday, I wanna say that I LOVE YOU. I may not showy most of the time, and you may seldom hear me saying that I love you, but I do. Thank you for being a wonderful Mom. I know you did your very best to support and nourish us with love and care. I know you and Papa did your best to send us to school and give us things that we need, it might not be too much but just enough for us to survive and to live.We are greatful having you as our mother for the rest of our lives. Mom, I know at times I failed you as a son, but Im keeping up. I just want you to know that I am always here no matter what. Malayo man ako pero malapit lang kayo dahil nasa puso ko kayo. I may not feel your embrace, but I know you care more than I can imagine. I may not hear your voice as often as I want, but your prayers are heard. Salamt sa walang sawang pagmamahal at pagaaruga sa amin. Hindi ako nahihiya ipagsigawan sa mundo n mahal ko ang Mama ko. Mwah!

Mom, Mahal na mahal kita. Maligayang kaarawan sayo mahal kong Mama.







Embarrasing

My week ended with a blast, as in literally blast (lol). Last Saturday, we checked in at Dusit Thani Hotel with my former colleague for a birthday celebration. I thought most of us will go but unfortunately few were able to come. We had a great time talking, laughing, talking again and then laughing. The next day was great since we had the chance to go to the pool area where some of my colleague went swimming. Since I didn't bring my swimming trunks (Lols). Me and my other office mate decided to take some pictures while others are enjoying swimming.

My officemate and I decided to try the jump shot. We're on my third pose, when I hear a crack aweful sound. The last time I remember was I was holding my jeans together because it was torn from underneath. When I checked it, it was torn from the waisteline down to the my legs at the back. You can imagine my butt sticking out, luckily I'm wearing my best under garment that day. Bwahahaha..

Buti na lang may panulsi ang kasama ko sa panahon na yun, or else uuwi ako sa bahay na nakahawak pa rin sa punit kong pantalon.

So embarassing...

Anyways, heto pala yung kuha ng kasama na jump shot. The last picture was the jump shot I did when that shining moment happened. Lol...Natatawa pa rin ako pag tinitigna ko ang mga larawang nasa ibaba.



 

 

A Letter to My Brother

 MAKATI, Philippines -- Today, July 23, 2011 is my brother's birthday. His the eldest in the family. I can say that me and my brother have that "frienemies" kind of relationship when we were still kids. I believe his 2 years older so we basically almost grow together. What I really dont like about having an older brother is that you'll inherit every clothes, shoes and other stuff that your older brother doesn't wear or use. In short, tagapag-mana ng tira-tirang damit. However, in our case my parents make it sure that what my older brother have, I'll also get. Like one time our parents bought us this terno shirt and short. We have the same shirt (but different in color), same shorts (different in color), same shoes (different size..of course). Worst right? I am like a copy cat of my brother. Anyways, it doesn't really bother me as I always look up to my brother. He has been my idol aside from my father.

Anyways, since I am away from home and I can't be with my family to celebrate his birthday, I decided to write him a letter. This is actually the second letter I wrote for my brother. The first one was when we had a major conflict/issue/war about something/someone (I am not sure if you can still remember that bro! hekhek). Remember bro, the letter I left on the refrigerator with your name on it so you can notice that its for you and read it? Hope so... Hindi pa uso ang email noon at ang blogging, kaya sulat kamay ang eksena natin dati.

A Love Letter to My Brother

Dear Brother,

I don't get the chance to tell you how much you mean to me and how much I LOVE YOU. I always look up to you as a brother who is always there for me and for our two younger siblings. I hope you know how much I value the relationship we have. As always, I am still wondering how lucky I am to have a brother like you. I am thankful that God gave you to me. I can say that we were different when we were still a kid. Every time I look back and reminisce the past, you can never erase the smile on my face. Why? Because of so many things. We are not that close when we were young. We are enemies in fact. We're not even playmates when we were still a kid. I can say that I think you dont like me to be a playmate. Lampa kasi ako noong bata pa ako. However, it doesn't stop me from loving you as a brother. I can feel that you are always there. I may not see it but you are there. I can feel the love and care and the sincerity of your heart.

I want you to know that I am proud of you. What you achieved right now is something that I have been praying for. I am happy that you became a proud father to your son and daughter. I am happy that you become a better person that God wants you to be. I know how proud our parents are because of that.

Brother, I haven't said this before and I regret for not telling this to you - IM SORRY. Sorry for in one way or another I failed you. I caused you so much pain in the past and inflict you with guilt. What happened in the past made me realized that blood is thicker than water. I also realized that my love to you as a brother will always comes first more than anything and I am willing to give up my own happiness and life for my brother and to your children. Nakakatawang balikan at isipin na ang nangyari sa atin noong nakaraan ay parang eksena sa isang pelikula. Hindi man naging maganda ang katapusan ng pelikula ngunit nananaliti pa ring matatag ang relasyon nating magkuya.

I can still remember, I am the first person you told me when you had a first girlfriend. I was happy. I wish I could turn back time and have that type of closeness again. I miss our smalls talks before. I miss the laughter and the kulitan with our siblings. I remember people always called us the unbeatable brothers kasi magkasama tayo at magkasabay sa kulitan at kalokohan. I wish we can regain that. I know I have this awkward feeling after what happened in the past but I know its not yet the end.

I may not always tell you but I hope you know how special you are to me, how much i appreciate the friendship between us and how many times I feel proud to have you, such a kind generous brother.

And today, I hope you know all the good things I wish for you and all the love that in my heart for one very special brother. Thank You!

Have a Blessed Birthday Brother!!!

Always,

Little Brother

Ulan



Bumuhos na naman ang ulan
Nakadungaw sa bintana nakatingin sa kalawakan
Minamasdan bawat patak ng ulan
Tinitignan bawat dampi ng ulan sa labi ng kalupaan

Naalala mo pa ba nung minsang umulan
Habang tayo ay naglalakad doon sa may simbahan
Bigla kang tumakbo akala ko ako ay iyong iiwan
Ngunit sa iyong pagtakbo hawak mo ang kamay ko at payong ay iyong binuksan

Kay sarap gunitain ang bawat alaala
Kahit sa mga araw na ito ikaw ay nasa bisig na ng iba
Masaya na ako sa panahong maulan ang paligid ko
Sa nagiisang payong mo ako pinasukob mo.

Ngayong wala ka na at maulan na naman
Di na nababahala kahit mabasa sa ulan
Dahil sa ngayon ako ay nagsasaya
Habang naliligo kapiling ang mahal kung kakosa

Kaya ang aking paalala
Kahit na bumuhas man ang ulan sa tuwina
Wag mabahala kahit na mabasa
Dahil payong ng iba ay nakahanda

Ngunit kung ulan ay lumala at payong ay wala
Di pa rin nababahala ang puso kung balisa
Sapagkat ang araw ay sisikat ng dakila
At tanggalin ang lamig sa puso kong ulila

 

Signs That He's Just Not Into You


I have a friend who really likes this guy and that every time the guy talks to her she thinks that the guy like her a lot. It seems to me that the guys is just being friendly and entertaining. However this girl friend of mine doesn't care at all. She really think and believe that the guy is really into her. Most of the time she so protective of the guy to the point of stalking the guy. She is really getting crazy over this guy. I almost slap her in the face just to wake her up from this madness. I just want to let her know that she is just wasting her time and effort with a guy who isn't worth her time. She deserves someone who will love her, right? right? And hopefully she'll awaken from her fantasies. Wake up my dear!

Anyway, I suggest my dear girlfriend to check and see the signs below if the guy is really NOT INTO YOU:

  • If he's not asking you out. If a man likes a woman, he can stop himself - he wants more. He wants to make it further. If he is atrracted to you, he is making a move and will find a way to take you out like for a dinner or a date to get to know you.
  • If he's not calling you or will not reply to you text messages. if a guy doesnt have any moment in his busy day to call or text you, it means he's not into you. You are just wasting your time texting or waiting him to call you. The truth is he really doesn't have any interest in calling you. The real reason is that you are not on his mind. So deadma lang ang text messages mo kahit mag misscall ka pa kung hindi siya interesado sayo. Goodluck!
  • Abrupt Change of Plans. Change of plan once, is understandable. Change it twice is not good. Anything else is just downright disrespectful. It only means that you are not his priority. It only means that you are an option and not the best choice at the moment. Words like, I'll just text you later what time I'm going to pick you up or I'll call you when we're on the location so you can go there. I think you should start saying bye-bye!
  • Missing in Action. The type of people who doesn't communicate for few days. No text message, No calls and then suddenly call you again. No Thanks!
  • Can't get over with his past relationships. Living in the past is extremely dangerous. If the guy can't stop talking about how great is her old flame is or how he enjoyed every moment the things they did means he still want to be with his old flame and still hoping that they will patch things up and start a new. So, do yourself a favor (and him) by letting him go to pursue her.
  • Silent Treatment. This is considered as the king of all sings. It starts by pulling away slowly, by emotionally or physically withdrawing from whatever relationship. If a guy is just not interested in a future with you, he stops calling you, change his phone number, meet up or visiting you becomes less or worst is he already packed his bags and booked a flight to singlesville.
So, my dear friend, if you see some of these signs or symptoms in your guy, it's time to move on. Action speaks louder than words. If he's not putting any effort he used to make your relationship work, better think and decide as early as now before anything gets worst. Hold your head up and keep moving forward with your life, without him. Time is so precious and time awats no one. Once uit's lost we can never get it back. So make sure you are giving your time to men who are worth the investment. Tsk tsk!

My Life is like a Rubik's Cube

My life is in chaos. Its not that obvious but lately I feel that I've been running to and fro searching for something I don't know. Sometimes I feel so alone and like nobody cares for me at all (I hate this feeling actually). I know this is just a state of mind but sometimes I can't resist the intensity of it. However, I tend to not soak myself into it as its not helping me as a person. I know that I am strong and I can do all things through God who strengthens me.
 
I arrived home from work with a heavy heart. I really don't know why, but sometimes, I'm like this (yes! sometimes nag-eemote din ako).

Pagdating ko sa bahay, I immediately changed clothes and then rest for a while. Seated on the floor, staring at the open window, looking from a far. Yung tipong malayo ang tingin mo at malalim ang iniisip. Honestly, ang dami ko talagang iniisip. Ano nga ba iniisip ko sa mga oras na ito? Heto...
  • I was thinking if the job that I have right now is what I really want to do for the rest of my life.
  • What will I eat for breakfast? lunch? dinner? How about lunch at work (actually lunch ko sa work usually around 12AM or 1AM).
  • Why single pa ako until now? Panget ba ako at walang nagkakagusto sa akin? Low maintenance naman ako o sadyang mataas lang ang standards ko... Nyahaha
  • Kamusta na kaya ang family ko sa Davao? I miss them a lot.Miss din kaya nila ako?
  • Kailan kaya ako makaalis ng Pilipinas papuntang Amerika? Kailan kaya matutupad ang American Dream ko?
  • (While staring at the Salt Water Aquarium).. Pinagpapawisan kaya ang mga isda kapag pagod na sila kakalangoy? Nauuhaw din kaya sila? Meron kayang mga isda na may phobia sa tubig?
...blah.. blah.. blah...marami pang isa..

While seated on the floor I saw this old Rubik's cube on top of my bed. I was staring at it for a few minutes then grab and twist it many times trying to arrange the colors, analyze and solve the puzzle. However, every twist and turns make me more frustrated. I cannot really figure out how to put the colors on the same side. So I decided to stop and just stare at it again.

I realized that life is like a Rubik's cube. As you can see, its very colorful. Most of the time we feel that we're in the right place, we belong to a certain clique or we already find real love and happiness. But the truth is, were not. We continue searching for things that will satisfy our inner soul. Sometimes we meet people with different colors and we feel we are already connected and we belong in each others arms, but then again we fail because we're not the same in terms of color. So the search goes on and on...

Like life, we continue to live. We are never tired of searching for answers and we continue asking questions until we find the perfect color. The exact same shape and same color we fit in. 

Like Rubik's cube that the user needs to twist and turn, move it up and down to check and see if we already have all the colors on one side, then if not, we twist and turn it again and again. In life, we will undergo different twist and turns but its good to know that when we face different turns God is always there for us, continue doing HIS promises until we find the true happiness.


Anyways, Ill go ahead and I'll try to solve this cube... Hopefully matapos ko to ngayong araw. Goodluck to me. Nakakawala ng stress pala ito.. See yah!!!


Dalawampung Kahanga-hangang Bagay na Nangyayari NGAYON

     Ngayon na ang tamang panahon. Ngayon mga kahanga-hangang bagay ang nangyayari sa buong mundo. Hindi man natin ito nakikita at nararamdaman, ngunit NGAYON maraming bagay ang hindi maipaliwanag.




Ngayon...

  1. Mahigit kumulang sa 240 batang ipinanganak sa buong mundo.
  2. Isang kaibigan ang tumutulong sa kapwa kaibigan upang malampasan ang problemang pinagdadaraanan.
  3. Isang tao ang nag-iisip gaya ng kung ano ang iyong iniisip ngunit hindi pa nya ito nasasabi sayo.
  4. Dalawang tao sa inyong lugar ay nagmamahalan.
  5. Isang tao ang may problema sa kanyang timbang noong nakaraang taon na nakatayo sa timbangan at naka-smile.
  6. Isang batang babae ang nagsimulang humakbang upang matutong lumakad.
  7. Bawat tao sa isang relihiyon o grupo na may ibat-ibang paniniwala ay nasa loob ng simbahan, mosque, templo o bahay dasalan upang ipagdasal ang Kapayapaan sa Mundo.
  8. Dalawang magkakaibigan ang nagtatawanan kahit walang dahilan.
  9. Isang tao ang naglilinis ng kanyang ilong habang ang isang kamay ay nakahawak sa kinakaing tinapay.
  10. Isang batang umiiyak dahil sa inagawan sya ng kendi ng kalaro nya.
  11. Isang sugatang sundalo ang nakikipaglaban para sa kapayaan sa mundo.
  12. Isang bombero ang tumatakbopapunta sa nasusunog na bahay upang sagipin ang isang taong hindi nya kilala.
  13. Isang grupo ng mga magkakaibigan ang nakaupo sa isang mesa na nagkwekwentuhan ng kanilang mga nakakatawang istorya. 
  14. Isang tao ang namimiss ka at iniisip ka. Natutuwa sa muli ninyong pagkikita.
  15. Isang ina ang naghahanap ng yakap ng kanyang anak na nawalay sa knaya.
  16. Isang doctor ang nasa loob ng operating room upang sagipin ang buhay ng isang pasyente.
  17. Milyon-milyong mag-asawa ang nagdiwang ng kanilang 5oth anibersaryo.
  18. Ang magiging Pangulo sa hinaharap ay nasa kindergarten ngayon, nagrerecess.
  19. Isang librong magpapabago sa perspketibo ng buhay mo ang siyang sinisimulang sulatin ng manunulat.
  20. Isang musikero ang gumagawa ng kanta habang iniisip sa kung pano ito tanggapin ng tao.
Ngayon ang simula ng bagong bukas. Ngayon na ang tamang panahon upang gawin ang mga bagay na dapat gawin. Ngayon na at hindi bukas.

Ngayon gumawa ka ng isang bagay na magpapaligaya sayo.Ngayon na ang oportunidad mo. Hindi bukas kundi NGAYON!

Kung nagustuhan mo ito. Ngayon na ang tamang panahon para mag komento. Hindi Bukas kundi NGAYON!

Love: is it Over? -- Eh Pano Yung Second Time Around?

     Napadaan ako sa Damuhan ni Bino at binasa ang kanyang post na Love: Is it Over?. Natamaan ako sa kanyang sinabi sa post na yun sa kadahilanang naranasan ko na din ang mga nabanggit nya not only once, not only twice but many times. Bobo kasi ako pagdating sa love. Give lang ako ng give. Minsan nakakalimutan ko na din yung mga bagay na dapat unahin. Love is blind nga siguro talaga. I mean not the love itself but maybe the people under the influence of being in love. Nakakaadik?

     Pero habang patuloy ako sa pagbabasa natanong ko din sa sarili ko pano yung tinatawag nilang "second chance"? Pano kung sa punto ng relasyon ninyo eh dumaan lang pala ito sa pagsubok? Pano kung sa maikling panahon na nararamdaman ninyo ang mga nabanggit ni Bino eh dumating din sa punto at marealize ninyo na mahal ninyo pala ang isa't-isa at di kayang mawala ito. Maniniwala ka ba sa isa pang pagkakataon o hahayan na lang na mawala ang mga bagay ma mahalaga sayo? Pano kung matagal na kayong magkasama? Pano kung marami na kayong naipundar na bagay at emosyon sa inyong relasyon? Pano kung sa nagawa niyang paglisan at pagtakwil sa ilang taon ninyong relasyon eh umaasa ka pa rin na sana balang araw ay babalik siya sa piling mo o di naman kaya ay babalikan ka nya at humingi ng tawad sa pagkakasala sayo. 

     Marahil masasabi mo na may pinaghuhuhutan ang sulatin na ito. Sabihin na natin na sa ilang relasyon na ang nadaanan ko eh may mga bagay din akong natutunan kahit papano. May ibat-ibang dahilan kung bakit umabot sa punto ng inyong relasyon na nagkakaroon ng pagkasawa o walang gana sa kapareha gaya ng nabanggit ni Bino, nawala na yung tinatawag nilang "spark". Ano nga ba meron ang spark na ito at nagiging dahilan pa minsan ng pagkakalabuan at hiwalayan ng isang relasyon.

Mga Gawaing Pamatay Oras

Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit sa tuwing sobrang busy ako sa work doon din gumaga ang imahinasyon ko sa pagboblog. Ang daming bagay akong gusto iblog kapag na pepressure ako ngunit hindi ko naman magawa dahil sa uunahin ko ang aking trabaho. Naeexcite akong umuwi agad para mag blog. Pero tuwing dumarating ako sa aking munting tahanan nawawala ang gana ko sa pag blog.  Nawawala ang motivation ko at napapalitan ito ng pagod at antok. Tila  ba kapag tumititig ako sa kama at unan ko ay parang tinatawag nila ako upang humimlay na at ipabukas na ang pagboblog. Naiinis ako. Hindi na tama to. 

Ngayon, wala akong ginagawa sa opisina. Ito yung mga araw na hindi ako masyadong pressure at busy. Hindi occupied ang isip ko ngunit wala din namang gana sa pag blog. Nababaliw na ata ako. Naghanap ako ng mga bagay na gagawin kesa tumunganga lang dito ng walong oras. Nag isip ako ng mga bagay na pwedeng pagkaabalahan. Mga bagay na makakatulong sa pag angat ng aming kompanyan at ekonomiya ng Pilipinas kung mahal.

Ilang oras na ang lumipas, So far heto pa lang ang nagagawa ko:
  • Kulitin ang katabi ko sa opisina.
  • Tinatanggal ang isang pad post-it at dinidikit ulit ito (100 pages ito).
  • Kinakalat ang isang rim ng coupon bond tapos inayos ko ulit.
  • Nangungulangot. 
  • Nakatitig sa salamin sa harapan ko at sinasabing, "Wala kang katulad Xander, Ang Gwapo mo Talaga!". (Wag na komontra, kanya kanyang trip yan).
  • Bumaba sa ground floor ng building namin na naka elevator. Umakyat papuntang 5th floor na naka hagdan. 
  • Tinatawagan ang kabilang extension ng phone namin na nasa kabilang table lang, at sasagutin ko din ito.  (Baliw lang diba?)
  • Pinalitan ng malamig na tubig ang coffee mug ng katabi ko na may lamang kape.
  • Nag nailcutter. (kamay at paa, paikot-ikot pa!)
  • Gumawa ng sariling kalendaryo ko gamit ang Microsoft Excel.
  • Nag iisip ako kung sisigaw ako ng sunog sa loob ng opisina para masaya. Pero wag na baka matanggal ako sa trabaho. 
So far, yun pa lang ang nakakabored na mga ginawa ko ngayong araw na ito.Habang kinakalikot ko ang aking cellphone, naalala ko na kailangan ko na nga pala mag make over ng aking buhok para sa isang pagtitipon na aking dadaluhan. Naalala kung maghanap ng bagong hair style sa kadahilanang wala talaga akong signature look pagdating sa buhok. Nakita nyo naman na walang kwenta ang style ng buhok ko na pang matanda. Argh!

Kaya heto ang mga ilan sa mga naisipan kung style ng buhok ko. Nakakatawa pa lang gawain to. 

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Tingnan nyo, pwede pala akong ng ibat-ibang klase ng hair style. Lol.T'was a crazy evening.

O sya cge at ako'y manggugulo pa sa ibang tao. 

Salamat sa pagdalaw hanggang sa muli!

Paalam Na

Ikaw ang nagbigay sa akin ng saya
Sa tagal nating nagsama, ikaw lang at wala nang iba
Akala ko ikaw at akoy magkasama panghabang buhay
Ngunit lahat ng bagay ay may katapusan pala
Mahigit anim na taon ika'y aking karamay
Sa hirap at ginhawa ikaw ang kaagapay
Puso ko'y hindi nagsisisi
Na ikaw ang pinili na walang pag atubili
Ngunit isang araw biglang naglaho
Ang matamis na pag-ibigan ay tinapon mo ng malayo
Na walang pagaalintana
Ako'y iyong binigo
Nagtatanong kung totoo ba ito?
Ang sagot mo lang ay tumataginting na "Oo".
Di ko kinaya ang totoong sagot mo
Ngunit wala akong magagawa kung ikaw ang lumayo.
Hindi kita masisi kung sa kanya mo nakita
Ang mga bagay na kailan man di mo nakuha
Gusto kita ipaglaban sa mapang agaw na kapalaran
Pero hindi tama sapagka't ikaw ang lumisan.
Pinili mo ang kanyang mga bisig
Kumpara sa aking totoo na pag ibig
Wala akong materyal na bagay
Ngunit meron pa akong dignidad at pagmamahal na iyong kaagapay
Ngunit masaya na ako
Na nagdesisyon kang lumayo
Napaisip ako
may dahilan ang lahat ng ito
Ako ngayon ay masaya
Hindi dahil sa nahihirapan ka
Ngunit ngayon ko lang natagpuan
Ang tunay na kaligayahan kahit na nag-iisa
Paalam na mahal kung sinta
Hanggang dito na lang talaga
Ang pag iibigan nagtapos din sa wala
Paalam na, oh aking sinta
Orihinal na Sulat ni:

Ang Bebe

FIRST SERVING: HONESTY

Sa isang di kalayuang bukirin ay naninirahan ang dalawang magkakapatid na si Juan at Pedro. Kasama nilang tahimik na nainirahan ay ang kanilang Lolo Jose at ang mga alagang hayop nito partikular na ang mga paboritong inaalagaan ni Lolo na mga bebe. 

Naging mabuting apo at katulong sa bukirin sina Jose at Pedro. Si Jose ay isang masunuring bata na may takot kay Lolo Jose. Kapag nagagalit kasi si Lolo ay para itong bulkang sumabok na naghahasik ng maiinit na lava. Si Pedro naman sa kabilang dako ay isang bata pilyo at mapang-asar kay Jose.

Isang araw habang naglilinis ng bakuran si Pedro, habang pinuputol nya ang mga damo gamit ang "grasshook" ay hindi nya namalayan na isang bebe pala ang nakawala sa kulungan at dumaan sa kanyang harapan. Ang bebe na ito ang isa sa pinakapaborito ng kanyang Lolo. Habang patuloy sa paglilinis si Pedro ay ganun din naman ang pagdaan ng bebe sa kanyang harapan ng sa di inaasahang pangyayari ay natamaan nya ang ulo nito. Dead on the spot ang kawawang bebe.

Sa takot na baka magalit si Lolo Jose ay dali daling niya ito ang itinago at mabilis na tumakbo sa likod ng bahay. Naghukay sa lupa at mabilisang inilibing ang kawawang bebe. Pawisan si Pedro matapos mailibing ang bebe. Panatag ang kanyang loob na walang kahit sino ang nakakita sa nangyari. Ang di niya alam ay nakita ito ng kanyang kapatid na si Juan. 

The next day...

Lolo Jose: Pedro! Pedro! Linisin mo ang hapag kainan matapos tayong kumain!

Pedro: Lolo sabi ni Juan siya na lang daw ang mag huhugas ng mga pinag kainan natin.

Juan: Huh!? Wala akong sinabi na ganun!

Pedro: (Bumulong kay Juan at sinabing..) Hugasan mo yang mga pinag kainan natin kung ayaw mo isumbong kita kay Lolo na pinatay mo ang paborito nyang bebe.

Juan: Ako na ang maghuhugas Lolo. Gusto ko naman talaga hugasan ang mga pinggan. 

Pedro: Good boy!

The next next day...

Lolo Jose: Pedro! Pedro! Magluto ka ng hapunan at may mga bisita tayo mamaya. 

Pedro: Lolo, sabi ni Juan siya na lang daw ang magluluto.

Juan: huh!? wala akong sinabi na ganun Lolo.

Pedro: Pabulong na nagsabi.. ang bebe!...

Juan: Ako na nga ang magluluto Lolo.

Malungkot si Juan sa nangyari. Naisip nya na ang pagtago nya ng kanyang lihim ay naging dahilan pa para makatas sa responsibilidad ang kanyang kapatid. Mas naging mahirap sa kanya ang mga bagay-bagay dahil sa pagtago nya sa kanyang sikreto. Napagtanto niya na mas makakabuting sabihin niya ito sa kanyang Lolo Jose. Tatanggapin niya ang parusa nito dahil sa nagawa nyang pagkakamali na hindi niya sinasadya.
Juan: Lolo, may sasabihin po ako sa inyo. Sana po mapatawad mo ako. Napatay ko po ang paborito mong bebe. Hindi ko sinasadya na maputol ang kanyang ulo habang ako'y naglilinis ng bakuran. Tatanggapin ko po kung ano man ang parusa na iyong ibibigay. Ako'y humihingi ng paumanhin na hindi ko sinabi sa inyo agad.

Lolo Jose: Apo, alam ko matagal na napatay mo ang paborito kong bebe. Nakita ko ang dugo sa "grasshook" na ginamit mo. Nakita ko din ang balahibo ng bebe sa likod ng bahay. Naghihintay lamang ako na aminin ang nagawang kasalanan. Ngunit, gayun pa man hindi ako galit sa nangyari. Sa nakikita kung paghingi mo ng tawad at ang pag-angkin ng iyong pagkakamali ay isang palatandaan na ikaw ay dapat patawarin.

Niyakap ni Juan ang kanyang Lolo habang ito'y napaluha sa tuwa. 

Few days after...

Lolo Jose: Pedro! Pedro! Linisin mo ang bakuran natin at mayabong na ang mga damu.

Pedro: Lolo, sabi ni Juan siya daw ang mag lilinis ng bakuran.

Juan: Bleeehhhh.. Hindi mo na ako maloloko. Sinabi ko na ang totoo kay Lolo tungkol sa bebe. Kaya linisin mo na ang bakuran. 

Pedro: Ganun? Huhuhuu...



MORAL LESSON:

Humingi ng tawad sa kasalanang nagawa. Wag ipawalang bahala ng ito'y hindi na lumala.

6 Quick Ways to Calm Down

Stone of Calmness
A friend of mine told me that I show symptoms of axiety and depression. I ask him how? why? He just laugh and told me that he can see it in my face. I was worried and alarmed because what he told me means something.

Then I start evaluating myself, like things that I usually do, food I ate, people I talk to, places I go to... everything. I found out that I worry too much about everyday life events with no obvious reasons. Sometimes, when I hear a news or an information from someone and I know that I will get affected by it, I immediately panic about it and never calm down. There are also instances than I easily melt down when I open my email and found 100 mesages in my mailbox that I need to read and answer.

So, I find some ways on how to calm ourselves down when melt down strikes. I always turn to these when I dont have time to phone a friend or call my parents asking for comfort or words of encouragement.

So here's my calming tip:

1. Let the world disappear
How to do it? By closing your eyes. Just gently allow your eyes to close and let the world disappear, and go within to regain your equilibrium. Just feel the calmness inside like your separating yourself away from the world that causes you not to calm down. Listen to the beat of your heart. This of happy and positive thoughts. In this way it will regain your balance and proper focus.

Though, I would'nt recommend using this tip on the road (if you're driving).

Harry Potter Moments


This post wont share any spoilers from the upcoming and final film due out next week. Most of us are excited to see what's gonna happened in the final battle between good and evil, though most of us already knew what happened because we already read the book. This post will focus more on the great moments from J.K. Rowling's glorious epic.

This is my personal observation on the film's greatest moments that makes me moved, inspired or brought me to tears.

The Chosen One
Harry Potter lacks purpose at the beginning of the film.he felt unloved, abused and force to sleep underneath the stairs. Living with his relatives makes him realize that his life is meaningless, like nobody cares. Until Hagrid breaks the truth and tells him that he's actually wizard. This moment makes Harry wonder and his young face becomes emotional.

Sometimes its hard for us to accept the reality. Its hard for us to believe that we are the chosen one especially when we came from a very difficulty situation or environment. But sometimes we need to trust our capabilities. We need to trust those people who trust us.

D.A. (Dumbledore's Army)
In order to stand up against the regime of Hogwarts High Inquisitor Dolores Umbridge, a group of students leaded by Harry Potter, Ron Weasley and Hermione Granger; organized and formed Dumbledore's Army. All meetings and practice are secretly held in the Room of Requirement at least once a week for several months.

In time of trouble and if our own strength is not sufficient, we need allies. We need friends who will assist and help us, who will train and challenge us. Sometimes, when the troubles gets tough, we need another hand for us to go through with every difficulty. And I think that is what this moment means to me.

Life-Size Chess Board
The first book, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone; Harry, Ron and Hermione faced with a difficult situation where Ron sacrifice himself so that Harry could win the game.

Dobby the house elf
The book Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows where they were escaping from the grasp of Voldemort's deatheaters. Dobby took a knife in the center of his chest that was meant for Harry. His last words when he dies in Harry's arms were, "Harry..Potter." His grave was marked with the epitaph, "Here lies Dobby, a free elf." In this moment I can see how he became a true friend to Harry that even his own life he gave and sacrifice for harry.

I remember a verse from the Bible: "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down ones life for his friends." - John 15:13


Harry escapes Voldemort's wrath
The climax of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire indicates that the book is getting interesting when Voldemort escaped and freed. This is also where Cedric Diggory (played by Robert Pattinson) died at the feet of Harry Potter. The moment Harry and Voldemort's wands clash, the parents of Harry appear and grant him courage at the moment he also escaped. It was so touching that he needs to sacrifice everything and there is too much expection from him.

So now that the adventures of Harry Potter is about to end, lets see how it will go and hopefully will give us a great and fantastic end.

And so dear readers, Whats scene or moments from previous Harry Potter series inspired, moved, or made you cry?

I finally gave in...

I finally gave in... I finally bought a DSLR camera. Why bought a DSLR? Wala lang.. gusto ko lang.. May reklamo ka? Hahaha..Joke!

Anyways, after taking some samples I am very pleased and satisfied with it. Not that heavy and its very handy. This is a beginner camera from Nikon. Secret na lang ang model. Nakakahiya naman baka may magsabi na bakit ito binili ko dapat yung mahal. Eh ito lang kaya ng pera ko. Waahhh...

Ok, here you go. Heto yung mga kuha ko. No edits. No photoshop. No lightroom. Not Yet! I'll just post the very first few pictures that I took. Para at least alam ko kung may pagbabago ba sa kuha ko in the coming days. Parang Project 365 lang diba.


 This is the very first shot I had. The moment I take the camera out of the box, my very first subject is our our salt water aquarium. That's Survivor (Tomato Clown fish). Why Survivor? Dahil sa dami ng isda ang nilagay sa aquarium na yan... Siya lang ang nabuhay. Medyo mahiyain pa siya sa lagay na yan. Kaya pag pasensyahan nyo na.


Upcoming Prequels and Sequels

I love watching movie either in a big screen or I could just download it in my laptop. It doesn't really matter if it's an old movie or a new release film. I also dont have a specific like in terms of what type of movie to watch. As long as it's an interesting movie then, I'm in.

I am so excited to know that some of the movies I love to watch had sequels and prequels. Some of the movies were confirmed for their sequel and some are still on the planning stage.

Avatar 2 and 3
An official release from Fox has confirmed that Cameron's next projects will be Avatar 2 and Avatar 3, shot back to back with planned release dates of December 2014 and 2015.

And we quote Fox Chairmen Jim Gianopulos and Tom Rothman: "AVATAR is not only the highest grossing movie of all time, it is created universe based on the singular imagination and daring of James Cameron, who also raised the consciousness of people worldwide to some of the greatest issues facing our planet... We had no higher prioirty, and can feel no greater joy, than enabling Jim to continue and expand his vision of the world of AVATAR. This is a great day in the history of our company, adn we thank all of those who have made this possible."

Cameron indicated that Avatar 2 will focus on the oceans of Pandora while Avatar 3 will see Jake and Neytiri journey to the moons of Pandora.

Fourth Underworld Movie
No director is yet attached and at the moment nothing is know about the stars Kate Beckinsale (Underworld 1 and 2) or Rhona Mitra (Underworld: Rise of the Lycans), if they will reprise their role or not, but series producers Len Wiseman and Gary Lucchesi are on board, along with Tom Rosenberg and Richard Wright.

I just hope the creators/writers can introduce some new and elements on the fourth film. And I hope this is not a prequel and wont redo the old three movies. I hope they will give out something new to the audience old and new. Something that will get us away from Twilight Saga about vampires and werevolves.

You've Got Mail #3: Making the Right Choice

"There comes a time in the spiritual journey when you start making choices from a very different place. And if a choice lines up so that it supports truth, health, happiness, wisdom, and love, it's the right choice." - Angele Arrien (born 1940); Anthropologist
Hey guys! Howdy?

          Here's another email from a reader and I would like to share it with you. Our email sender is a  Certified Nurse and just got his licensed recently. He is in a dilemma of pursuing a career here in the Philippines or starting a life abroad.

You know the drill guys, so here you go...

~~~~~~~
From: Confused Nurse
To: zxander316@gmail.com
Date: Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Subject: Weee...

Hey Sir Xander,

          I really admire you the way you write; your technique and style is really good. I'm an instant fan. I did some back readings on your blog and its cute to know that a lot of your readers sent you an email, and you also share it to your followers in your blog by hiding their identity. It's a nice thing since most of the email senders have something to share and you also give your own idea and point of view about a certain topic. That's cool man! I am curious about how mine will go. I just want to get your fresh and brilliant idea about my dilemma. It's about how to make the right choice. 


          I just finished college. I took up Nursing and recently got my license. I am still jobless but hoping to have a work in this field. However,my dilemma is that my parents wanted me to go abroad. Actually, they're currently living in UK. I honestly, don't agree to their idea as I wanted to pursue a career here in the Philippines. I understand their sentiments and they want me to be together but I can't imagine leaving the Philippines. Sounds nationalistic right? But that's how I feel. My close friends are here. People I know since I was a kid are here. My grandmother to took care of me is here and I can't just leave her here. I explained it to my parents but they don't buy it. 

Pigsa

Oh pigsa kong nilalangit
Bakit ka nakasabit sa aking pwet
Di naman kita pinipilit
Na dyan ka pa kumapit

Bakit ka ganyan?
Hinding hindi ko inaasam
Sa tuwing ikaw ay minamasdan
Ako'y nalulungkot at nagdaramdam

Sa panahon na ako'y sobrang busy
Ikaw naman ay masayang nakangisi
Sa aking pwet ikaw ay nakakabit
Naninilaw at pagkalagkit-lagkit


Sana mawala ka sa pisngi ng aking pwet
Kasi nakakaabala ka sa pagsayaw ko to the tune of "dirty bit"
Sana sumabog ka na
At tuluyan nang mawala.


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