Call Me Xander

Addiction. Coffee has been my best friend for many years now. It has been my greatest partisan in times when I am battling depression or when I am in a deep thought about something or someone. I take coffee as my greatest supporter when I don't have someone who can help me release my tension and exaggeration. I can take about 3-4 cups of coffee a day (using larger cups/mugs though). I can take any types of coffee, whether its from Starbucks or Coffee Bean or could it be just a regular coffee from the vendo machine in the office or from a pack of coffee I always bought from a store nearby. Though, I love sipping latte most of the time. Sometimes I wonder, " does drinking coffee really benefits me ?". I do some research about coffee and found some facts about coffee. But lets define first what is the meaning of coffee. "Coffee is a brewed drink prepared from roasted seeds, commonly called coffee beans, of the coffee plant. They are seeds of coffee c...

Ending a relationship is not always easy and for most people, nothing to celebrate about. Very often, people are faced with mixed feelings, including shock, anger, guilt, frustration, sadness, even fear. When there is nothing pleasant about boyfriend-girlfriend breakups, how do you protect yourself and avoid the trauma? Here are some ways that might help: 1. Accept the inevitability of change. People change and this affects their relationships. Sometimes, when change occurs at different rates and directions, people grow apart and find no reason to stay in a relationship. When this happens, consider it as a part of a process. 2. Face the pain. You will be better able to survive a breakup and avoid trauma if you can take the bad feelings, acknowledge them and accept them. Don’t try to close your mind through denial because no amount of wishing can change things magically. Don’t try to numb yourself using alcohol or drugs because other than the health risks, these offer only temporary r...

Are you tired of playing games, wearing masks or trying to be someone other than yourself? Wouldn’t you like the freedom to just be accepted for who you are, without the pressure to be someone you really don’t know how to be? Would you like to learn how to embrace your uniqueness and resist the pull to be like everyone else? God knew what He was doing when He made you. You are a unique individual—God created you the way you are! It’s time that we dare to accept ourselves as different and stop being insecure about who we are. If you’re going to overcome insecurities and be the person God’s called you to be, you must have the courage to be different. Unhappiness and frustration happen when we reject our uniqueness and try to be like each other. If you’re going to be successful at being completely you, then you’re going to have to take a chance on not being like everyone else. You must ask yourself, Am I a people pleaser or a God pleaser? Becoming a people pleaser is one of t...

Ang init! Sobrang init ng sikat ng araw. Syempre itong yung kasunod na kwento sa unang na post ko na "bored" ang pamagat. Di ko na talaga makaya ang init kaya lumabas ako ng bahay para medyo naman makalanghap ng sariwang hangin. haaayy mainit pa rin kasi 12 noon na pala. Di ko man lang namalayan ang oras. So naisipan ko na pumunta muna sa 7-11 para magpalamig. Syempre wala akong planong bumili ng kahit ano, kasi nga wala akong pera diba, so magpalamig lng talaga pakay ko dun. Habang naglalakad ako papuntang 7-11, may isang bagay na agaw pansin sa akin. Di ko mapigilan lumingon at matitigan man lng sya. PArang dumikit ang mga mata koy di ko na mailayo sa kanya. Kaya dahil sa kaba ko, bigla kung binilisan ang aking paglakad. Malakas ang tibok ng aking puso. Kangingig sabay pawis. Habang ang lalamunan ko namay natutuya, baka dahil sa kaba at init na rin… Nung makapaso k na ako sa 7-11, medyo nahimasmasan ako sa lamig. Agad akong pumunta sa may mga inumin ng s...

im tired.. dont now where to hide… i never lied… from the day your on my side… you keep me calm… when everything is going down… but why i feel like this… when in the first place you know how i miss… your kiss your peace… maybe you need to ignore… this feeling in me that i cant restore… time will tell i know i dare… things will pass… until the end and surely we’ll last…

I almost quit my job today. In fact this is not the first attempt, this maybe my nth time ever since I worked in this company. I’m working in a BPO company. I guess for me, one of the best in the land in terms of benefits and maybe perk. Salary is good, better than nothing. I’ve been working in a call center for almost 3 yrs now. Ehmajenin nyo, since nag work ako sa call center dakilang agent pa din ako. Well, I’m not complaining naman sa position ko before. But, things are different now. Stagnant ang life ko as an agent. I tried to apply higher positions, pero.. wala namang nangyayari. Is it because uso na ang palakasan factor o di naman kaya need ng back up? Or maybe, I did not fit the job or overqualified (pampalubag loob naman). While I’m taking my lunch, alone, I tried to ponder the things that pushed me to quit. Let me explain it to you in a trouble-free way: Test I: Enumeration: 1. Money, Money, Money (Kantang pinasikat ng Abba.. kada?). Parang feeling ko maliit ang sweld...

i dont know what to do if i ever lose you cant live my life without you its hard when im not with you please dont let me go as i will always hold your hand and never go dont give up on me to you i will always be imagine the times were together those happy moments will be kept forever the sad times that we’ve been through makes our relationship strong and always brand new I cant live seeing you hurt that makes me bleed and torn apart i cant forgive myself for hurting you i said i’m sorry and hope you’ll forgive me too im so proud of our relationship that we’ve reach this far you knew that my past was a roller coaster or like in a chasing car and then you came and touch my life in ways like nobody elses has and im thankful that you fight every circumstances that comes between us my world gets lonely if youre not here with me i wanna send my lifetime in love you so please stay with me (composed: 2/25/2010 @ 02:39AM)