Call Me Xander

Leaves clenching closely in the tree branch Breathing happily like there's no second chance Hanging in innocence Silently holding stronger than we notice For the leaves gladly dances as the wind approaches The leaves never tired of clapping Like praising the one who made him When storm comes and slap its face It only bow down and pray for God's amazing grace For the leaves know that trials come in many ways As the tree continues to grow The leaves will surely know The sooner the leave will go For thats what the leaves destiny and so Returning from the ground is where the leaves go Accepting the leaves fate is inevitable Willing to let go because the leaves know That as the tree grows A new leave will surely show Taking its inheritance and continue to grow -ABoyNamedXander  Makati | 2014 Photo Taken: Davao City, Abreeza Mall

Yan ang pakiramdam na kahit gaano pa kasakit eh hindi mo na nararamdaman ang sakit.  Kahit gaano pa kahirap ang sitwasyon mo, eh wala ka nang pakialam.  Kung baga pa sanay ka na sa nararamdaman mo. Immune. Hanggang kailan ba dapat umabot sa punto na maging manhid ang ating nararamdaman? Yun ba ay kapag sawa ka na. Kapag ba paulit-ulit na lang nangyayari ang isang bagay at kahit na anong gawin mong paraan para maayos ito, wala pa din. Talo ka pa din. Lugi ka pa din. Nasasaktan ka pa din. Ngunit bakit sa tuwing naging maayos ang sitwasyon mo eh bumabalik ka na naman sa nararamdaman mo.  Gaya sa isang relasyon.  Kapag napagod ka na at sobrang nasaktan ka eh nagiging manhid ka na.  Anytime, pwedeng sumuko at inawan ang kung ano man ang meron kayo. Pero kapag sinuyo ka na naman. Kapag pakiramdam mo ikaw ay binabalikan. At kapag sa tingin mo ay gusto niya na sana magkaayos kayo at muling magkabalikan.....

Remember when you were a kid? Your biggest worry was, like, if you get a new shirt or a brand new shoes on your birthday or if your parents give you your one weeks "baon" or just enough for a day. Or your only focus is just to play and play harder.  Being an adult? Totally overrated.  I mean seriously, most of us are fooled by fancy clothes, red shoes, brand new car, credit cards, late night parties, great sex, and the no parents telling you what to do and what not to do thingy.  Adulthood is responsibility.  This letter R really sucks. Really, really sucks.  As adults, we need to do things to survive. We need to earn a living to pay our monthly rental. If you are a teacher, educating little ones means you are shaping the future of our nation by molding this little ones into a better adult in the future. Talk about responsibility. As an HR person, holding employees personal and confidential information is a big responsibility, hello? ...

Sometimes we need to get hurt for us to heal. We need to get wounded to experience pain. Sometimes we need to get lost for us to get direction. We sometimes need destruction, damaged or broken for us to understand how to build ourselves and be created anew, stronger, better and different.  Personally, fear befalls me when I am broken and shattered. I became fragile and easily distracted. I lost direction. I lost control of my decisions and always jump into every opportunity that comes my way. I want to keep away from that feeling of loneliness and hurt and so I easily dive into anything that comes along whatever it takes. I envy those who have that guts to be strong despite and inspite of what situation they are into. I admire those who still believe that there is someone out there who firmly believe with all their faith that someone is always ready to save them from their misery. I do believe, but I just don't know how to start. I can hear that little child...