Call Me Xander

  There will come a time in your life when you will fall short of your goals. When you'll face disappointment, failure and the pain that comes with it. And when that time comes, remember this: failure isn't the end. It's simply a chance to start anew. Accepting your failures is not a sign of weakness, but rather an act of courage. It takes strength to face your shortcomings and to learn from them. It takes resilience to rise up after a setback and keep pushing forward. So don't be afraid to fail, because failure is a teacher. It shows us what doesn't work and gives us the opportunity to try something new. Embrace your failures, for they will make you stronger, wiser, and more resilient. Stand up strong and keep moving forward, because the journey to success is not always easy. But remember, it's not about how many times you fall, it's about how many times you get back up. Keep going, keep pushing, and never give up on your dreams. Success may be just around ...

Yan ang pakiramdam na kahit gaano pa kasakit eh hindi mo na nararamdaman ang sakit.  Kahit gaano pa kahirap ang sitwasyon mo, eh wala ka nang pakialam.  Kung baga pa sanay ka na sa nararamdaman mo. Immune. Hanggang kailan ba dapat umabot sa punto na maging manhid ang ating nararamdaman? Yun ba ay kapag sawa ka na. Kapag ba paulit-ulit na lang nangyayari ang isang bagay at kahit na anong gawin mong paraan para maayos ito, wala pa din. Talo ka pa din. Lugi ka pa din. Nasasaktan ka pa din. Ngunit bakit sa tuwing naging maayos ang sitwasyon mo eh bumabalik ka na naman sa nararamdaman mo.  Gaya sa isang relasyon.  Kapag napagod ka na at sobrang nasaktan ka eh nagiging manhid ka na.  Anytime, pwedeng sumuko at inawan ang kung ano man ang meron kayo. Pero kapag sinuyo ka na naman. Kapag pakiramdam mo ikaw ay binabalikan. At kapag sa tingin mo ay gusto niya na sana magkaayos kayo at muling magkabalikan.....

Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning . -  Psalm 30:5 Our country faced another very difficult situation. We were again flooded and some of our Kababayans were affected by this unfortunate event. Despite the wrath of Maring washed out the things we build, our houses and some of us lost our loved ones yet we stand still and remain faithful to the one who sits on the throne, GOD.  I remember the song by Bob Fitts, entitled You are so Faithful that says: In the midst of the storm Through the wind and the wave You'll still be faithful When the sun refuse to shine and the time is no more You'll still be faithfull You'll still be faithfull, Lord. I believe that everything happens for a reason. And I also believe that if something has been taken from us, greater things will be given.  I may not be able to help those who are in need during this tragic moment but by prayers and petition and solemn supplication, I am abl...

Alam mo yung nadamay ka lang dahil sa palpak na nagawa ng ibang tao. Yung nadali ka dahil sa may maling ginawa ang kasama mo sa trabaho. Pak one pak ol. Yung hindi ka naman talaga dapat kasama sa pagagalitan, pero since pinagalitan yung isang ka-team mo. Pinagalitan na din kayong lahat. Alam mo yung isang tao lang ang dapat makarinig ng masasakit na salita pero nakadinig ka pa din ng masasakit na salita dahil nasa isang room lang kayo, at para hindi rin masyadong obvious na siya lang ang pinaparinggan. Yung  dapat may overtime sana kayong lahat, pero since yung isang kasama mo eh ang lakas mag-OT pero wala namang ginagawang trabaho. Walang output. Damay ka sa policy na hindi pwedeng mag-OT nang hindi nagpapaalam kahit dati walang paalam na nangyayari. Wasak ang kumikitang kabuhayan. Alam mo yung, hindi ka dapat kasama sa nahold-up pero since nakasakay ka din sa jeep na hinohold-up, eh damay ka na. Yung isang kasamahan mo sa trabaho naiin...

Yes! That's the famous line noong panahon ni Marcos...yung time na pinatalsik na siya ni Cory. But I won't talk anything about what happened many years ago. It's all in the past. Sabi nga ng nakararami, lets move on and move forward. Nangyari na ang nangyari kaya wag na natin balikan. Gets? Pero bakit karamihan sa atin ay mas gustong balikan ang nakaraan kesa puntahan ang bukas. Mas marami ang gusto na manatili na lang sa alaala ng kahapon kesa salubungin ang magandang umaga. At mas marami sa atin ang mas gustong balikan ang nakaraan kahit nasasaktan kesa harapin ang bukas na puno ng pag-asa.  Wag na tayong lumayo, kadalasan nangyayari ito kapag ang isang tao ay umiibig. Diba kapag mahal na mahal natin ang isang tao ayaw natin mawalay sa kaniya. Kapag sa tingin mo ay sa kanya naikot ang mundo mo ay ayaw mo nang kumawala sa sumpa na dulot ng pagmamahal ng sobra. Ang tanong eh, kailangan ba talaga sa kanya umikot ang mundo mo? Pano na ang mundo kung saan ikaw ay...

Kung ang bigat ng mundo ay 5.972E24 kg at idagdag mo pa ang bigat ng mga tao na nakatira dito, mga nasa 316 million tons ang bigat ng lahat ng adults sa mundo o 633 billion pounds.  Yung 16.5 millions tons ay mga overweight, ayun sa World Health Organization. Ngayon, idagdag mo pa ang bigat ng yung loob dahil sa problema na sa tingin mo ay nagpapahirap sayo at dahil sa bigat ng loob mo ay dinamay mo pa ang ibang tao... Kaya mo pa kayang pasanin ang mundo? Well, unang-una... GINUSTO MO YAN! Bawat isa sa atin ay may kinakaharap na problema. Ikaw, ako, kahit sinong nilalang ay may inisip at hinaharap na suliranin. Kahit pa yung asong nasa kalye ay namomroblema sa kung ano ang kakainin niya. Kaya nga siguro may asong baliw o ulol dahil sa nawalan na sila ng ulirat sa dami ng problema nila.  NGUNIT, nasa sayo din yan kung hahayaan mo lang na pasanin mo ang daigdig na puno ng problema. Hindi ito nauubos... Pero ang pasensya at lakas ng tao kunting kunti l...

Larawan kuha sa Palawan Noong nakaraang weekend, tulog lang ang ginawa ko. Mahigit 24 oras ata ang tulog ko nun. Bumabangon lang kapag nakaramdam ng gutom at matutulog na naman kapag dinalaw ng katamaran at antok. Minsan bumabangon na lang ako na pagod at umiiyak. Karaniwan na sa akin ang ganung eksena. Minsan naman ay humihingal ako dahil sa masamang panaginip na kesyo hinahabol ako ng mga zombie o di kaya naman ay may humahabol sa akin at lumilipad ako pero ang baba lang ng lipad ko.  Pero noong nakaraang weekend kakaiba ang karanasan ko. Akalain mo ba namang dalawang beses akong nanaginip sa isang tulugan. Magkasunod. Yung una nakakatakot. Yung pangalawa light lang.  Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano nga ba talaga ang dahilan ng panaginip natin. Naalala ko noong nasa kolehiyo ako, maraming mga Psychologist ang may sariling interpretasyon sa mga panaginip natin gaya na lang ni Sigmund Frued, Carl Jung, Calvin Hall, Ann Faraday, Wallace and Jean Dalby Cliff, at m...

Larawan kuha sa Pangasinan Habang binibilang ang natitirang araw bago matapos ang taon naisip ko maraming pagsubok at pangyayari ang dumaan sa buhay ko.  Sampung buwan... Sampung buwan na din ang dumaan, mahigit sampung pangyayari na din ang naranasan ko. May masasaya at may malulungkot. Pakiramdam ko sa bawat lungkot ay may nawala sa pagkatao ko, materyal na bagay man o hindi. Sa bawat saya ay nadadag-dagan ang pagkatao ko. Maraming nawala; bagay, kalusugan, pagkabata, mga pangakong nakalimutan, minsan din ay ang karapatan. Ngunit may mga bagay na hindi pwedeng mawala sa ating pagkatao hanggat hindi natin hinahayaan ang iba na kunin sa atin ito: A. Nararamdaman/Tingin sa Sarili. Hindi mahalaga ang kung anong sinasabi ng ibang tao tungkol sa pagkatao mo. May dahilan kung bakit tayo andito sa mundo, yan ay ang pag diskubre sa kung ano ang kakayahan mo bilang ikaw. Mahirap mabuhay sa utos at dikta ng iba.  B. Sariling Pananaw. Bawat isa sa atin ay ma...

Sa aking pagpapatuloy ng pagiging positive sa buhay. Isa sa pinanghahawakan ko ay ang tiwala sa Panginoon. Alam niyo, kahit na anong pagsubok sa buhay malalampasana natin kapag tayo ay may paniniwala at relasyon sa Maykapal. Higit sa anong uri man ng relasyon ay kailangan natin ang Panginoon. Gaya ng sabi ko, kahit anong pagsubok man ang ating pagdaanan dapat tayo magpasalamat. Ngunit aminin natin na minsan hindi maiiwasan na nalulungkot tayo. Hindi natin hawak ang buhay at ang bukas. Kaya kapag nalungkot ka, tandaan mo lang na may isang gustong makinig sayo. Para maipagpatuloy ang pagiging masaya minsan kailangan din natin ng lakas na galing sa kanya. Kaya kapag malungkot ka at nahihirapan, ibigay mo lang lahat sa kanya. Magiging masaya ang buhay mo. Kaya ang card na ito ay pinapadala ko sa lahat ng mambabasa ng blog na to at mga mahal ko sa buhay na sana wag tayong bumitiw agad at magtiwala lang. Masaya ang mabuhay... Cast all your cares on HIM, for he cares for ...

borrowed from Mr. Google. Lately, my life has been a roller coaster. There have been instances that my faith has been blocked by the situation I was into. I learned a lot from the past experiences and overcome difficulties. As I look back on what had happened in my life for the past 6 months, I can say that I failed in certain aspect but gained victory on the other. That is life's reality, no cannot always get what you wanted. However, life needs to move on. And as we move on we always keep the lessons we have from the past as a shield to our future.  Let me give you a quick rundown of the things that I always keep in mind for me to stay focus. #1 - Happiness and Success are two different things. A friend of mine is making thousands of pesos last year and up to this day she is earning big bucks. She invested a lot of things and saved enough money in the bank. We really admired her for being so successful in terms of work and how she achieved in life. But guess ...

Di ko inakala na isang araw mararanasan ko din ang ma-holdap. Akala ko kasi sa TV Patrol o 24 Oras ko lang mapapanuod ang mga eksenang ganyan. Kaso sa kasamaang palad noong 7/11, Oo tama ang date na yan 7/11 (July 11) ay naholdap ako sa loob mismo dyep. At akalain mo ha katabi ko pa si Manong Driver na kahit nagmamakaawa na ako ng tulong eh diretso pa rin sa pagmamaneho. Sabagay, mahirap din yun kung di siya naka-focus sa pag drive baka mabangga naman kami. Kung nagkaganun eh double trouble ako. Naholdap na, nabangga pa. Saklap much lang! Anyways, masakit man sa loob ko na makuha ang mga mahahalagang bagay na matagal kung pinagkakaingatan (at pinaghirapan din) ay nagpapasalamat pa din ako na hindi ako sinaktan kahit gustong gusto kung saktan ang mga holdaper na yun. Hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga pagmumukha niyo. Isusumbong ko kayo kay Tulfo (Chos!). Hindi ko na muna isasalaysay ang buong pangyayari baka kasi maglaslas ako sa sama ng loob. May mga bagay akong napagtanto at ...

Some of us are afraid to ask questions but we love answering questions. According to Voltaire, "Judge a man by his questions rather than his answers." ...because if we ask the right question we get the right answer. Some of us are afraid to ask some of the questions listed below: What is the difference between living and existing?  If we learn from our mistakes, why are we so afraid to make mistakes? What impact do you want to leave to the world? If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don't like and like so many things we don't do? If you looked into the heart of your enemy, what do you think you would find that is different from what is in your own heart? Life is too short to tolerate __________? How do you know whether it's time to continue holding on or time to let go? Why do you matter? How many of your friends would you trust with your life? Are you happy with yourself? Based on your current daily actions and routines, where wou...

I was checking my emails the other when I noticed that my Spam Emails Folder is screaming because its already full. I then clicked and checked if there are emails that's supposed to be not a spam but was routed to that folder. I also noticed that most of the are really Spam. Lol! The only thing that catches my attention are these emails from someone in Burkina Paso. Funny thing is, I dont know someone from that place. However when I open the email, it says: Dear Lucky Winner! Congratulations!!!  I know this is a spam email and a scam. Where in they will tell you that you won in a lottery and all you need to do is to send your Full Name, Address, Telephone Number or even your bank account so they can deposit the amount you've won. Funny! As I continue checking my emails, I found another one is which more of like a personal email from Western Union And another one from Mr. Ming Yang ...

Hiram Kay Kuya Google I called my Mom the other day telling her that I will be going home this coming October 21st for a very short vacation with my office mates. We had a very short conversation that leads me to think about my future. After I told her about my unplanned vacation, we then have these conversation below.  She asked... "Kamusta ka na? Ano na balita sayo? May girlfriend ka na ba dyan or kasama sa buhay?" Being away from my family for almost 6 years now probably makes my Mom wonder If I am already committed with someone. I am not that open to my parents when it comes to relationships. With her question I replied with a laugh... Then he continued by asking me... "Wala ka pa rin bang girlfriend? Kahit fling wala? Mag fling ka naman". With those words coming from my Mom, my laugh becomes louder than the first. I then told her. "Importante pa ba yun? Masaya pa naman ako kahit single ako eh. Saka ko na siguro iisi...

I was washing my clothes this morning and was in a hurry to get it done so I can do other stuff today. I washed those clothes I wear when I go out to a party or special event, those clothes I always wear when I go out with my friends, when I go to church or when having a dinner with someone. As I keep on soaking those clothes in the bucket and squeezing it with my hands so dirt will come out, bubbles also came out every time I squeeze it. I sort of enjoying what I'm doing when a panoramic view of my life started to came out in front of me. One by one, I can clearly remember those scene of my life. There was a scene when I was still a kid trying to play with my siblings, a scene when I was in high school and had my first crush, the time I was broken-hearted, a scene when I started to lie just to keep myself away from trouble. There is also a picture of me trying to make decision which causes more problems in the end. Another scene of me seeing myself hating someone so much that ...

hiram kay manong google.com The past few weeks was one hell of a ride. It was a moment of ups and downs. Been into emotional depression that causes my health to go down and I've been sick for weeks. My faith in God and in myself have been tested. For a time, I forgot who I was. I dont remember anymore the same person I used to be when I was a kid. My purpose disappears and in just one blink of an eye I forgot everything I have been dreaming of. This morning while I was reading the Bible, yes you read it right I read the Bible (did I just mentioned the word read three times in a phrase?..gosh). I was meditating the book of 1 John 1:7 - If we walk in the light, as he is the light... The Blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from sin, when a drop of faith reminded me so many things. Suppose a student doing a science project and experiment on the effect of light and darkness on the growth of the seed. The student gets a mung bean from a store and plant it in four Styrofoam cups...

When I woke up this morning and preparing myself for my job interview. I ask God, through my thoughts, if this job is really for me. I ask If He had a better plan for my future. I know I wont get an answer immediately. It takes a while. It's a process. It should start in me. Then I evaluate myself for the past few months about things that I did and accomplished, if any. I always found myself in the middle. You know, I always play safe in everything that I do, always making sure that I am pleasing in the sight of others. But what about God? Did I please Him with what I am doing? I guess not. Maybe thats the reason why I am suffering and encountering problems upon problems because I am always in the middle. I never step out of my comfort zone. I never came out according to what God wants me to be. I am never that strong. Never! Not until now. Today, I am praying for peace of mind and serenity of my heart. Lord, give me the strength that I need for me to move on with life. Give...

This is the longest vacation I ever had. I mean, I haven't been this lax all my life. As most of you know that I am currently jobless and finding ways to have the ends met. Though I know that sooner or later I will land on the job that is best for me. However, just this afternoon as I was staring at my laptop browsing some job openings I feel so useless. I just feel so helpless. I've never been this idle for a long time. I felt that my skills and expertise are so not  working anymore. I began to ponder on why and what happened. It shouldn't be this way. I should not feel this way. I should rejoice because I have the time to rest and think of better ways on how and where to discharge my energy.  I began to doubt myself and feel that I am incompetent and that I can not really do greater things. I am just one of those wannabee who is trying so hard to impress a lot of people but deep inside I am just the same wannabee who will fail in the end. I feel rejected....

hiram kay manong google I went to the nearest gym after work as one of my daily routine. Most of us, wants to look gorgeous and beautiful. Who doesn't want a nice abs, cool and muscular biceps and triceps. Who doesn't want to look great every time you see yourself in the mirror? Well, I'm not count me in. However, I enrolled in a gym for me to gain weight and to just have a defined body. I am very lean and wants to add a little weight and some muscles too. I think looking good is one way of enhancing my confidence. Gusto ko lang talaga maging mawdel. I was in the thread mill for 30 minutes. I can feel the sweat coming out in every part of my body. I didn't stop  until my 30 minutes thread mill ended. As I was cooling down, I can sense sadness inside. I was looking at myself in front of the mirror trying to figure out what causes the sudden loneliness. I look left and right and observe the people around. I can feel the atmosphere of sadness going into my ne...

I posted the line above last week in my Facebook wall after what happened at work last Friday morning.  At exactly 5AM last Friday, August 12, 2011 my boss called up for an emergency meeting. I really do not have any idea what to talked about since there is no issue or anything from the past few weeks or months at work. The work that we have seems really smooth. Anyways, just to give you a short background I am working in a KPO (Knowledge Process Outsourcing) company here in the country. Lets just named it as Company B. I've been with Company B for 3 months now. I am working as an HRIS (Human Resource Information System) Specialist. We are the pioneering team in Manila and our counterpart is based in New York, USA. We have a great team and as I can see it we have a great working relationship with our bosses in New York.Within 3 months the transition and training works just fine. Going back to the meeting.. So our boss call a meeting inside a very private room. I can s...