I was washing my clothes this morning and was in a hurry to get it done so I can do other stuff today. I washed those clothes I wear when I go out to a party or special event, those clothes I always wear when I go out with my friends, when I go to church or when having a dinner with someone. As I keep on soaking those clothes in the bucket and squeezing it with my hands so dirt will come out, bubbles also came out every time I squeeze it. I sort of enjoying what I'm doing when a panoramic view of my life started to came out in front of me. One by one, I can clearly remember those scene of my life. There was a scene when I was still a kid trying to play with my siblings, a scene when I was in high school and had my first crush, the time I was broken-hearted, a scene when I started to lie just to keep myself away from trouble. There is also a picture of me trying to make decision which causes more problems in the end. Another scene of me seeing myself hating someone so much that I already I killed him through my mind. I wonder where it came from. I wonder why was I reminded of those incidents of my life. Those are the worst incident, the biggest mistake, the darkest side of me.
I tear began to fall from my eyes as my mind keep on asking why. I told myself those are in the past and that's not who I am anymore. I feel guilt. I felt bad about what I did or what have I done in the past. I wipe the tear in my eye and continue washing those filthy clothes. I wish that I can also wash my life in the past. I wish I can do something about it so I wont be reminded of what happened way back. I hope that I didn't do anything bad so I wont jeopardize the goodness in me. But things already happened and it was a reason why.
I then finished washing my clothes and hang it nicely with a hanger and then put it in the tenter fresh and clean. I then realized that negatives things happened in the past so I will be a better person. I made bad decisions before so it will help me decide better in the future. Negative things happened with a purpose so that good things will come.
I never regret anything that happened in the past as it reflects who I am today. I believe that everything happens for a reason and with a purpose. I might not understand it today, but soon in the future. Thank God for allowing me to see the bad in me so I wont do negative things again.
I just love washing clothes. Don't you?