Call Me Xander

BABALA: Walang kinalaman ang title na ito sa mga nakasaad sa ibaba. Lol.. Rain starts to pour at around 8AM last August 27 while I was busy packing my "dora backpack" for the so called " Maitim na Balak: Ang Soul Searching ng mga Single na Bloggers" . I was kinda hesitant at first to go out because the day prior to the said event, I was sick and afraid that It'll get worst if I force myself to go out. However, I do not have any other choice but to go. The ticket is with me. If I wont go chances are, Carlo will kill me; alam nyo naman na sa title pa lang ng blog niya parang naisin mo na lang na mawala na parang bola kesa magalit siya; or they will hate me for the rest of their lives. Ayaw ko kayang magkaroon ng bad image sa blogosphere. Lol. Aside from me, eight people confirmed their attendance. Leah , Bino , Mhel , Jay , Joshua , Cuteberl and DB . Ang bilis lang nilang mag "I do" sa invitation ni Carlo baka daw kasi masupladuhan (haha..napa...

One of the main problem of people working late at night, specially those in a BPO (Business Process Outsourcing) industry, is the shortage of food. Establishments who offers great and affordable dining experience usually starts to close at 9PM. Food pantries are sometimes boring if not nonnutritive. I am one of those who work at night and my main concern is where to dine during that hour? Sometimes I pack lunch but most of the time I don't. I always depend on food chains and "turo-turo" which is really unhealthy if you constantly do it. Nakakasawa din naman .  Last August 26, Bino and I were lucky to be invited by a very unique food delivery provider in Makati and in Taguig. The name itself sounded like a very good one: Kitchen Knight . You will be delighted in their selection of Korean, Japanese, Thai and Filipino dishes which will be freshly cooked upon order.   I ordered Fish Hoisin Chicken Bulgogi Pork Tonkatsu Ever heard of Popping Bo...

This is the longest vacation I ever had. I mean, I haven't been this lax all my life. As most of you know that I am currently jobless and finding ways to have the ends met. Though I know that sooner or later I will land on the job that is best for me. However, just this afternoon as I was staring at my laptop browsing some job openings I feel so useless. I just feel so helpless. I've never been this idle for a long time. I felt that my skills and expertise are so not  working anymore. I began to ponder on why and what happened. It shouldn't be this way. I should not feel this way. I should rejoice because I have the time to rest and think of better ways on how and where to discharge my energy.  I began to doubt myself and feel that I am incompetent and that I can not really do greater things. I am just one of those wannabee who is trying so hard to impress a lot of people but deep inside I am just the same wannabee who will fail in the end. I feel rejected....

hiram kay manong google I went to the nearest gym after work as one of my daily routine. Most of us, wants to look gorgeous and beautiful. Who doesn't want a nice abs, cool and muscular biceps and triceps. Who doesn't want to look great every time you see yourself in the mirror? Well, I'm not count me in. However, I enrolled in a gym for me to gain weight and to just have a defined body. I am very lean and wants to add a little weight and some muscles too. I think looking good is one way of enhancing my confidence. Gusto ko lang talaga maging mawdel. I was in the thread mill for 30 minutes. I can feel the sweat coming out in every part of my body. I didn't stop  until my 30 minutes thread mill ended. As I was cooling down, I can sense sadness inside. I was looking at myself in front of the mirror trying to figure out what causes the sudden loneliness. I look left and right and observe the people around. I can feel the atmosphere of sadness going into my ne...

Minsan naisip ko na sana di na lang kita nakilala Hindi ako nagsisisi ng ibigan ka Ngunit naisip ko na baka masaktan na naman ako Pero di alintana sa kung ano man ang maidulot nito Matagal na kitang kakilala Simula nung ako ay meron pa   Hindi ko man sinasadya na ikaw ay ibalewala Ngunit sa una nating pagkikita para akong ibong nakawala Dulot mo ay saya sa malungkot kung mundo Sigla sa puso ko ay ibinalik mo Ito ang takot ko na baka may magbago Ngunit bahala na basta ang mahalaga ikaw ay nasa puso ko Alam ko hindi mo ako kayang saktan Alam mo din naman na di kita kayang pakawalan Ngunit alam mo at alam ko na sa ating pag-iibigan Ang sakit at puna ay sadyang hindi maiiwasan Kakaibang pag iibigan na sa tingin nila ay mali Pero sa atin ito ay tama at walang pasubali Ngunit anong pakialam natin sa lipunan na mapanghusga Kung ang mahalaga ay tayong dalawa Hindi ko pinapangako na kaya kung ibigay ang lahat Ngunit susuungin ko a...

I posted the line above last week in my Facebook wall after what happened at work last Friday morning.  At exactly 5AM last Friday, August 12, 2011 my boss called up for an emergency meeting. I really do not have any idea what to talked about since there is no issue or anything from the past few weeks or months at work. The work that we have seems really smooth. Anyways, just to give you a short background I am working in a KPO (Knowledge Process Outsourcing) company here in the country. Lets just named it as Company B. I've been with Company B for 3 months now. I am working as an HRIS (Human Resource Information System) Specialist. We are the pioneering team in Manila and our counterpart is based in New York, USA. We have a great team and as I can see it we have a great working relationship with our bosses in New York.Within 3 months the transition and training works just fine. Going back to the meeting.. So our boss call a meeting inside a very private room. I can s...

This is just a short message.. I would just like to great my Papa a Happy Birthday. Kahit wala man ako sa piling mo ngayon at di ako kasama sa pag celebrate ng iyong kaarawan, gusto ko lang malaman mo na andito lang ako at mahal na mahal kita.  What Makes a Dad God took the strength of a mountain, The majesty of a tree, The warmth of a summer sun, The calm of a quiet sea, The generous soul of nature, The comforting arm of night, The wisdom of the ages, The power of the eagle's flight, The joy of a morning in spring, The faith of a mustard seed, The patience of eternity, The depth of a family need, Then God combined these qualities, When there was nothing more to add, He knew His masterpiece was complete, And so, He called it ... Dad ~~Author Unknown.~~

A mistress should be like a little country retreat near the town, not to dwell in constantly, but only for a night and away.   -- Lord Byron (British Poet, 1788-1824) Hi Guys! The Guru is back. It's been a while since I havent posted anything like this. You've Got Mail is now called Return To Sender. This is my way of replying to those email senders who wants to hear my point of view and opinion about their queries and concerns. I'm replying (returning) the email to sender with my own views and opinions. Kuha nyo? Anyways, here's an interesting email from someone and for security and privacy reasons, lets just call her the Fierce Mistress (Parang bagong palabas lang na the Fierce Wife ng ABS-CBN Channel 2). ****************************************************** ****************************************************** From: The Fierce Wife To: zxander316@gmail.com Date: July 30, 2011 10:15AM Subject: Confession of a Mistress Hel...

Abot tanaw na ni Dan ang pangarap na gusto niyang makamtam. Isang hakbang na lang at makikita na din ang inaasam asam na karimlan. Para sa kanya, mainam na tapusin ang buhay kay sa makita ang pamilyang nagugutom sa hirap at asawang nasasaktan sa tuwing siya'y nasasapian ng demonyo ng alak. Nakatayo sa gilid ng pampang sa may sapa si Don habang inaalala ang kasamang idinulot niya sa asawa't mga anak. Isang hakbang na lang ay matatapos na din ang paghihirap ng kanyang pamilya. Hindi na niya kaya ang pananakit sa asawang si Mae tuwing nalalasing siya. Hindi na niya kayang makitang nagugutom ang anak sa tuwing binibili niya ng alak ang pera na dapat sana'y gastusin para sa pagkain ng pamilya. At hinding hindi niya mapapatawad ang pambababae at panloloko sa butihing may bahay. Nanlulumo sa kahihiyan.. Nababagabag.. Nakokonsensya...  Si Mae ang simbolo ng isang ilaw ng tahanan na nangarap na mapab...

 I REALLY HATE MY NAME. dyuk! Seriously, I really don't like my name that much. Why? Tinatanong pa ba yan? For me kasi my name is so common. Madami akong kapangalan. Gusto ko kasi wala akong kapangalan eh. Gusto ko nagiisa lang ang name ko. Like for example, when I had my Masters may ka name ako na Alex (girl). So kapag tinatawag ang Alex napapatayo kaming dalawa kasi di  namin alam kung ako ba o yung girl ang tinatawag. Nakakainis diba.. pero mas gusto ko na siya ang tawagin haha.. Ayaw ko kasi ang oral recitation ehh.. Lol. If given a chance at kapag mayaman na ako, I might change my name into something different. Yung hindi common maybe starts with letter "Z" like Zandro, Zabel, Zeebeedee, Zuma (di pala common ha!?) or maybe starts with "X" like Xavier (marami nga lang kapareho) o di naman kaya a name that starts with Ñ. Astig diba? Pero honestly gusto ko talaga na name nag start sa letter "J". Ewan ko kung bakit pero pa...

Nakatitig sa kawalan si Yumi habang nakatayo sa may bintana. Malakas ang ulan noon at malamig na hangin ang dumadampi sa kanyang katawan. Tila ba nagpaparamdam ng isang malungkot na pamamaalam. Sumasabay ang kanyang mga mata habang sinasayaw paitaas ng hangin ang kulay asul na tabing ng bintana. Humakbang siya papalayo at umupo sa may kama. Nakatuon ang kanyang mga mata sa may bintana at pinagpatuloy ang pagtitig sa kawalan. Minamasdan ang sayaw ng ulan. Pinakikinggan ang panaghoy ng hangin. Malungkot... Balisa ang kanyang isipan... Kinakabahan... Humiga siya may kam... Binaluktot ang kanyang mga paa hanggang sa ang mga tuhod nito ay umabot sa kanyang dibdib. Niyakap ang kanyang sarili na parang isang sanggol na nasa sinapupunan pa.  Naging mahinahon ang kanyang nararamdaman. Sa sandaling iyon ay nakaramdam siya ng kapayapaan. Isang malakas na katok ang kanyang narinig na sanhi ng paglakas muli ng pintig ng kanyang di...

Hiram na larawan kay Pareng Goggle I was reading Manga online about Naruto's latest chapter wherein his having a hard time taming the nine tailed beast inside him. Tailed Beasts (biju) drive the plot of the Naruto series and said to be a giant construct of Chakra (basic energy source necessary for ninja to form jutsu) that if the host (Naruto for example) can tame and control it will have the ability to utilize its power which eventually gives the host great strength. As I continue reading the last chapter, I began asking myself what if I'm one of the host in the series? How will I handle such pressure and strength? How will I react and tame my beast? I began to process these questions and I know I need answers at that point. I stared at the window pane from where I am seating in the office and then I saw  reflection of me through the glass window and suddenly I realize that each one of us has its own beast. I have my own beast inside. You have yours. H...

I always wonder why most beautiful girls I know go for guys who has this punky kanto boy looking. Yung tipong basagulero look and anytime will hit you in the head with a bottle of beer when things get nasty during a drinking session. Some will go for a rock star look. Yung tipong astigin na medyo may pagka bad boy ang dating. Did you get what I mean? In short, beautiful girls go for bad boy looking with a real bad boy attitude kind of guy. I always wonder... I've been branded as the bad guy, not with the way I look but with something else, attitude perhaps. With the past relationship(s) I had, I'm always the culprit of causing the relationship to fail. They always blame me why it didnt work. I'm always the reason of the breakup. They always told me that I need to change the way I look, the way I arrange my hair, the way I wear my clothes. They always told me to love myself more and then blame me for loving them too much. Nakakasakal daw ako. I do not know if loving so...

I stumbled upon this phrase in the internet while I was looking for the logo of TGIS, the now-defunct teen oriented show of GMA 7. Medyo natawa lang ako sa phrase na ‘to kasi parang it gives new meaning to my single life. Siguro nga it is really God’s plan that I would be single, well, maybe not just for now pero baka for my entire life na rin siguro. Aaminin ko, minsan nagtatanong ako sa sarili ko kung bakit hanggang ngayon eh single pa rin ako, pero kung iisipin mo, maswerte pa rin ako kahit papaano pala. Hindi lang siguro ako nagmamadali na magkaroon ng karelasyon dahil na rin sa takot na akong mabigo at masaktan. Well, may sarili naman tayong choice sa buhay and sa ngayon mas pinipili ko na lang na maging single muna. Masaya naman pala maging single. Una: hindi ko kailangan magpaalam kapag aalis ako sa isang tao na nakilala ko lang at minahal kamakailan lamang. Hindi ako mahihirapan magpalusot at kapag hindi ako pinayagan sumama sa mga lakad. Kung sa magulang lang ako magpapa-...